Feeds:
Posts
Comments

Posts Tagged ‘depression’

I definitely need a reboot here. I’m getting some of the classic signs, i copied some of the stuff from the link below,

Health problems caused or exacerbated by stress include
Depression and anxiety
Sleep problems
Pain of any kind
Skin conditions, such as eczema

Signs and symptoms of stress overload
Memory problems
Inability to concentrate
Poor judgment
Seeing only the negative
Anxious or racing thoughts
Constant worrying
Anxiety and agitation
Moodiness, irritability, or anger
Feeling overwhelmed
Sleeping too much or too little
Withdrawing from others
Procrastinating or neglecting responsibilities
Nervous habits (e.g. nail biting, pacing)

How much stress is too much?
Because of the widespread damage stress can cause, it’s important to know your own limit. But just how much stress is “too much” differs from person to person. Some people seem to be able to roll with life’s punches, while others tend to crumble in the face of small obstacles or frustrations. Some people even thrive on the excitement of a high-stress lifestyle.

Stress Symptoms, Signs, and Causes

I tend to fall in the crumbling in the face of small obstacles and frustration.

Today i didn’t really want to do much of anything, sure earlier today (or yesterday) i wrote something but among some of the symptoms, i sleep too much. Didn’t really want to do anything, but of course did some shopping at least. Some of it is exhaustion from work but sleeping around 4 hours today? Yeah, it is stress because procrastination and withdrawing from others are some of the others. I don’t think i ever fully recovered from my previous job which was a stress storm of anxiety. I definitely need a reboot and i’m not exactly sure how i’m going to accomplish this. I already am in the process of buying a home and i’m just wondering.. since today was supposed to be my home inspection but now is delayed until Friday i’m just wondering if i’m still able to back out.. but i don’t think i really want to or could really because i do need to get a home closer to work.

It’s really not clear what is causing my stress to be so overwhelming. Sure getting a new home is stressful and my current job is somewhat stressful at times and my father annoys me to no end (hence the previous 2 blog posts). I eat pretty much ok as i have been getting meals from my stepmom and they are pretty healthy stuff, but maybe i could exercise a bit more, although the area i am at now isn’t exactly a good place to go out and walk or ride my bike around. I do get exercise at work. I do struggle with friendships i’m not exactly sure what it is but i can never stay connected with friends for very long and i do tend to isolate myself from people, especially in recent years.

Again i don’t think i fully recovered and maybe taking some time off will do me some good when i get my new place (that’s if i get it, with all these roadblocks in the way). I can’t really be doing this all the time though, when i am off work i am usually just watching tv, which is much better than sleeping.. but on my days off, i generally sleep 2-4 hours during the day which shows i do have a stress/anxiety problem. I definitely need a reboot as i don’t want to continue having to do this on the regular basis. If i need 2-4 hours of sleep every once in awhile it’s no big deal but since this is a regular occurrence i really need something..  while music does help, it only helps to a certain extent and i need to know what will work for me. I really need to figure this out…

I would like to add that this sleeping problem has been an issue since working at my previous job. When i would get 3 days off i would sleep a lot and more than often i would sleep when i wasn’t working. Probably around 12 hours a day (that includes the normal 8 hours). Much of my stress and anxiety happened during my previous job, lack of income and i am thinking that problem hasn’t been entirely gone away or out of force of habit i tend to sleep, although generally if i take a nap it’s because i get tired. Again it’s unclear if it’s a habit or that i am still struggling with stress and anxiety. Of course the stress of buying a new home is there, but since i am nearly done with this only thing that is left is the home inspection and the appraisal, but there is a slight chance i won’t get the home.. which would actually add stress considering now i have to do the process over again of finding a home.. at this point i just want it to be over and done with. Once i get the home the stress levels should go down. I can only hope that it does…

Read Full Post »

This is sort of a continuation of the previous article of how some people can create unnecessary problems in their life. One of the biggest reasons you may have problems is that you take on too much that you can really handle. While people may say, God does not give you any more problems than what you can handle, it’s more than likely that these people do not really take on more than they can really handle and only you can really know that. No one else can. Only i can know how much i can handle and this is where we tend to cap ourselves with lesser activities. It’s like the people who are constantly in a rush in heavy traffic. They take on more than what they can really handle and they are always late. It doesn’t even matter if you are rushing or not you will still make it to your destination at the same time. Rushing does nothing other than getting you to work a minute faster and more than likely you’ll be stuck in traffic like the rest of us. Leave earlier and you won’t have either issue.

This is where we end up having unnecessary problems in life. Other reason you may be having problems is you are treating others badly. My father tends to get angry at people and then directs his anger at those people who may or may not have gotten him angry but irregardless, most of the time these people mean well.

Take Carmax for an example, instead of making a formal complaint to the company when he got a problem vehicle that they did not fix, he just blames Carmax and then tells people never to go there. Well that doesn’t really do anything other than hurt everyone working there that may or may not be the actual problem. The company has to suffer because of some bad employees who didn’t follow the company guidelines. If you were sold a car that had some engine or mechanical failures, of course this goes back onto the place you bought it from but by making a formal complaint to the company, they will generally make these changes. If they don’t then the company will then falter. But it’s not really our place to say a company is horrible just because you had a bad experience. If others had a bad experience it’ll be because there is a problem with the company.

Target for an example, had mentioned they open their doors to transgenders and they are allowed to use the bathroom they identify as. A lot of people got angry, hurt Target’s bottom line. If it was just one or two people and they were continually trying to get people to stop going there then that would be an issue. And with a good company, generally you will have anywhere from 1-10% of consumer issues. Really should not hurt the underlying companies reputation especially when all you had to do was make a formal complaint to the company and they could rectify the problem by doing an investigation and either clear up the matter or if an employee is a problem they can either write up a warning or they will be let go depending on the circumstances. Sure it would hurt that employee from having a job but at the same time they were not following the companies guidelines.

In an essence what you do affects other people and often times that can come back on you as Karma. Are we as Christians automatically forgiven for sins such as these? Well, sure but if you are doing it constantly especially with certain people then yes, it’ll come back to you no matter what because you have not learned a lesson here. We are forgiven, but at the same time have to learn from our mistakes. So the next time you get yelled at work, got cut off by someone.. just make sure you are not doing anything to provoke it. It could be Karma getting the best of you. It’s better to be nice and respect everyone because you will get that in return. It is never a good thing to tell someone that life is full of trouble either because then you are also creating unnecessary trouble on those people, if people think life is trouble then they will constantly run into problems.

And this is what i am dealing with because people like my father cannot keep it simple. Life is too short to be constantly worried, stressed out, angry, depressed or whatever it is. Life should not be trouble, life should not be filled with pain, anger and hate. Yet it is, but we have to find ways to shield ourselves from all of that because we have to deal with situations with the least amount of problems associated with it. I certainly do not and cannot deal with problems as they arise unless it’s the only thing i am really focused on. If i got 100 diff problems they are going to be overwhelming because i simply can’t deal with every one of them at once. One thing at a time.

And i really do need a vacation after i get my new home. My realtor just told me my home inspection can’t work because the utilities are not on. So basically i took a day off for nothing.. but at least i have a day off. Do some shopping and talk to my insurance company (hopefully) but if not at least i got a moment of reprieve because i so desperately need it.

Read Full Post »

cluttered-room.jpg

No seriously i wonder if it’s laziness, depression, tiredness or a simple case of idgaf because no one ever comes over. It’s not that bad now, i did clean it up to an acceptable point and i keep telling myself, this time it’ll work, but it ends up being..

How about no.jpg

because generally when i’m at work i’m thinking, today’s that day i’m going to clean…

messy-house

and it’s the usual excuse, i’m too tired. I’m also only home 2 days a week (because i stay at someones house during the weekday for work) so that is generally the culprit but no, even during the week i get lazy and ‘forget’. It wasn’t always like this, when i first moved in, i always kept it pretty clean though most of the stuff i have was still in the packing crates. And it would always get progressively worse. It generally happened during the holidays where i would just be too tired, because working in retail was too stressful,
Retail.jpg

but it turned into an everyday thing where it was easier to turn on a gaming system, computer or put on movies for the night than to pick up a broom and sweep. No one will care anyway right?

My apartments like to do a yearly inspection and not bother to tell you until a week (sometimes less, like 2 days).

really-bruh-2

So they’re not even in the same month range. It would make sense to do it during the yearly renewal but they seem to not always do that. So now it takes me scrambling to get the place clean because i fail at being proactive and just keep it clean to begin with. Seriously if i spend an hour cleaning a week i wouldn’t care. But it still is a problem where i’d only clean when someone is visiting. So other than me getting into the routine of, “i’m too tired/lazy to do it” i ponder whether or not the last girl i was interested in didn’t do something.

rejected

Yes, i was rejected and not only that i was completely fine with being friends which was my original intention but i had people going,
ask-her-out

which actually ruined any chances of being best friends with her, because she would always assume that was interested in her which i was but she didn’t need to know that and again was completely fine with being friends.
Friend-Zone-Memes-23.jpg

but again, that was perfectly fine if i was friendzoned, but i wasn’t just friendzoned, i was work-friendzoned. Anyway, i’m not looking for anyone nor i really want to find someone, which is another topic, Transgenders is a big reason i do not date or have a relationship so for the other major reason i do not date or am not in a relationship is because while rejection is a part of life, it’s not really something i am willing to put up with when i could be focusing on other stuff, like not cleaning the house…

funny-cat-lazy-human

So i’m going to have to come up with some sort of gameplan to keep my place clean and to avoid being lazy, tired or whatever. I doubt i am seriously depressed, maybe a touch of it but certainly not enough to really avoid doing housework. I got it done for now but i need to keep it clean and not cluttered.

Read Full Post »

Anti-LGBTQ Junk Science And Fake News Are Poised To Harm the Future of LGBTQ Equality

Except that this article doesn’t prove anything regarding junk science or fake news. Sure there has been some fake news going around and it’s not just anti-lgbt factions, it’s also from the transgender community as well. And this article is showing that transgender activism cares more about the right to be transgender than child safety. Just look at half of the suicides in children who identify as transgender,

Transgender man with Asperger’s killed by Mesa, Arizona, police
Transgender Teen Who Was Crowned Homecoming King Dies
Election-Related Transgender Youth Suicides
Doctors Delusional: Transgender Disorder & Really Bad Psychiatry
The Transgender Suicide Rate Isn’t Due To Discrimination

And the last one, interesting enough is most likely the story that jump started the transgender activism with children, An Ohio transgender teen’s suicide, a mother’s anguish

In which the only way a child would know they are transgender is by social media,

Carla Alcorn said that she took away her child’s access to social media because the teen was looking at “inappropriate” things on the Internet but would not say what those things were.

There was also another indicator about hormone blockers which is not mentioned in this article, but a child does not know about these things unless they are being told this and the only reason that this Ohio teen was suicidal is because of learning too much about what transgender is and that is what aggravates the symptoms.

To put it simply, I feel like a girl trapped in a boy’s body, and I’ve felt that way ever since I was 4.

This is a typical keyword that these people find. Just look at the results from a Google search. Already there’s an article there, ‘I longed to be a girl from age three’ and this was from a simple google search. On another site, which may or may not be cause for a problem does have the word suicide in it on the side, but you look up ‘what is transgender’ and you’ll find a few articles mentioning conversion therapy and suicide,

Why don’t transgender people get counseling to accept the gender they were assigned at birth?

Counseling aimed at changing someone’s gender identity, sometimes known as conversion therapy, doesn’t work and can be extremely harmful. The belief that someone’s gender identity can be changed through therapy runs counter to the overwhelming consensus in the medical community. Telling someone that a core part of who they are is wrong or delusional and forcing them to change it is dangerous, sometimes leading to lasting depression, substance abuse, self-hatred and even suicide. Because of this, a growing number of states have made it illegal for licensed therapists to try to change a young person’s gender identity (laws apply to those under 18). However, many transgender people find it helpful to get counseling to help them decide when to tell the world they are transgender and deal with the repercussions of stigma and discrimination that comes afterward.

A couple of other sites mention the word suicide and while there was a lot more search results in the past when you simply type in transgender (not so much now) in which is another problem is more than likely if someone is new to being transgender or maybe hear that transgenders attempt suicide, it always is being deflected as “Oh if kids don’t transition early they will be more likely to commit suicide than if they were allowed to transition” or “The reason the suicide risk is so high is because of discrimination”. Which may be true but as shown above in parents accepting their transgender children that the suicide risks are still very high.

Discrimination against transgenders, let’s talk about that for a minute. If you are born black, tall or short, fat or whatever, nothing can really be done for that even with some medical intervention there are some overweight people who simply can’t change their weight even with medical professionals. Transgenders (not to be confused with those who are intersex) on the other hand, there is nothing physically wrong with them. They have all functional body parts and they could coast through life easier being the person they are born as rather than someone that they feel is better. Yes there is a high rate of suicide and much of it is due to discrimination, but it’s more than just discrimination it’s a high risk of being murdered, Transgender couple bombarded with death threats after male partner gives birth to their biological son

That is already past discrimination. Texas federal judge halts Obama protection of transgender health rights, even at the Federal level transgenders are constantly fighting a losing battle for rights. The HB2 law can’t even be rescinded (yet anyway). This shows that living as transgender is not safe. Going back to the original article stating that anti-transgender articles and organizations is harmful to transgender equality, it’s really not about equality but about people’s safety. Of course some of the anti-transgender agenda is simply hateful and anything to condemn transgenders is a win in their book. But the bottom line is that the transgender activism is struggling to understand that many people/parents do not want children to be exposed transgender ideology. For now many parents will have to monitor their child’s internet activity 100% of the time as they should anyway to prevent their child from seeing something they shouldn’t be seeing. Transgender activism will see this as leaving your child in the dark about what transgender means but children do not need to understand this until they get older so they can make a proper decision themselves about it. Most adults know when to stay away from danger, children may or may not but they are usually too young to understand. It’s like touching a hot oven, no one would do such a thing without proper protection or allowing it to cool off so it is able to be handled.

Professionals do need to understand the dangers they are prescribing to their patients. A doctor will tell you not to move your arm around if you break it. They tell you not to eat solid foods after a pulled tooth. To not do any work after getting stitches for the possibility of ripping them open. Just as, if it’s dangerous to live as a transgender.. professionals should not be advocating that people should transition. It is extremely dangerous and as there is plenty of evidence of that shown in this post and others as well, transgenders do not have equality because society will not allow it.

Read Full Post »

If parents allow their children who claim to be transgender to transition, the child will eventually attempt suicide.

http://www.breitbart.com/big-government/2016/10/03/mother-sues-hospital-discrimination-calling-transgender-son-girl/

Case in point where this mothers transgender kid successfully committed suicide. The fact remains though that it wasn’t just the hospital but other factors that this child was eventually going to attempt suicide anyway. It’s a symptom or a result of gender dysphoria. No matter how these transgender advocates spin things these children are a suicide risk. The idea that these children are at risk for suicide if they are unable to transition is false and the reality is that these transgender activists are trying to scare parents into letting their child transition and give them hormone drugs. Furthermore these activists have basically coerced these parents that their child could be transgender, http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3859618/You-caused-son-great-harm-insisting-raising-girl-Boy-seven-sent-live-father-mother-raised-daughter.html

Even though most if not all of these kids are not transgender but confused. In majority of these stories it’s always the mother who is speaking for their child. The lack of a father figure shows there is little discipline in the home. By allowing your child’s wish to be transgender is still forced upon, no matter what activists may say that you are forcing the child to live as their assigned gender instead of what they want to be. Even if these children were suicidal before transitioning is not an excuse to transition. Feelings is not an excuse to transition. It doesn’t solve the suicide risk. It is still very high even though these parents are not rejecting the gender identity of their children.

What these advocates do not understand that there is a problem with people who feel they are born in the wrong body. Transitioning solves one problem and brings out another. Discrimination is very hard to eliminate. Especially when the discrimination is due to a delusion that some people feel they are born in the wrong body.

Just take a look at the laws being written against transgenders, https://www.google.com/search?q=anti+transgender+laws

It doesn’t make any sense to continue to promote transitioning especially in children under the age of 18. It is really not worth the risk especially when society doesn’t want and in fact hate transgenders. When stories like a transgender woman is run over 3 times  that is overkill and shown the extreme rage people have against people who choose to live their life against their assigned gender. Its just like getting shot repeatedly after the person is already dead. There is far more violence against transgenders than what the media reports and often times children who identify as transgender are at a much higher risk of suicide. Whether its by children or the fact that a nosy neighbor is constantly berating the parents for allowing their child to be transgender or because people do not want transgenders in their homes, schools, locker rooms, or in society period, http://www.breitbart.com/texas/2016/10/21/court-obama-transgender-bathroom-directive-blocked-nationwide/

When people are creating laws against a group of people that want to identify as the wrong gender, it’s time to call it quits. While there are seemingly stories that transgenders are happy much of that is false. Most if not all transgenders are facing discrimination and doctors shouldn’t be advocating transitioning any longer. It’s only a matter of time before transitioning especially in children will be banned in America. It’s the only logical course of action when too many bodies end up in the morgue and it’s unacceptable that children are included. Transitioning does not solve the problem, the risk of suicide is still present.

“I can’t even go in public without someone telling me to kill myself,” Arianna said.

http://www.mirror.co.uk/tv/tv-news/mother-threatens-transgender-child-homelessness-9091604

The only solution is to ban transitioning.

The rest of the links,

http://latinamericanpost.com/article/high-rates-of-suicide-and-self-harm-among-transgen/

http://www.choiceandtruth.com/2016/09/the-transgender-programming-of-children.html

http://www.vocativ.com/culture/lgbt/transgender-suicide/

http://www.advocate.com/politics/transgender/2015/05/25/san-diego-mourns-third-trans-teen-die-suicide

Read Full Post »

%d bloggers like this: