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First of all, the cost of living is ridiculous. To make it worse the wonderful state of Illinois doubled the gas tax and car registration is now another $50. I’m already straining on buying a new car even a relatively new Honda Accord costs around $25k. That’s $25,000. Needless to say I gotta wonder if I could get a Dodge Challenger.

I love Chicago and Illinois for its wonderful weather and sights. However the politicians are a huge problem. They can’t find ways to cut expenses yet we the taxpayers are funding their huge homes and $70k vehicles. They make over $50k a year which is ridiculous when we have to pay taxes that won’t even fix the bad roads. Instead they tear up perfectly good roads and ignore the ones with crater sized potholes.

Even though gas taxes are not too terrible, you got a ton of people driving way over the speed limit which also uses more gas up. They dont seem to mind though because they’re getting upset with me for driving 55mph instead of 60mph and they dont always like me driving 60 either.

It’s gotten ridiculous with the costs and taxes.

On to the other topic so I did freak out a bit when I saw my favorite crush drive up (I could see it with the door ajar and even though the window) I was already getting ready to leave to go to the other plant but it just seems that I’m not ready to see her quite yet.

Also for Friday and Monday during her 12:30pm lunch I got this vibe of feeling anxious or anxiety. Like I wonder if she was worried I might try to talk to her again or something. I really don’t know what’s going on there… I keep rationalizing it, that’s it’s just all in my head but also I was a bit rattled when I saw her drive up. I’m not sure whether she came by my workstation because I was facing the other way letting a coworker/friend know I have done the first pass with some parts. I also kept far away when I was heading to the other plant. The only thing I can think of at the moment is maybe she’s wondering why I’m not there when she is so maybe shes worried that I’m avoiding her. Like she might feel bad for canceling the lunch.

But see I don’t know and as far as what I’m doing, I’m moving on. So maybe being in the vicinity is doing something rather than avoiding the plant entirely. So it appears to be doing something, I hope. We’ll see what happens over the week.

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My problem with women. I should stop trying to ask them out. It’s clear I’m not ready for that and should focus on being friends with them, especially if there is a spark, I’m just too frightened by crushes.

The problem is, I’m not ready. People want to rush me into relationships. They want to play cupid and that simply wont work. Even if I feel there is a connection with someone I’m not going to rush into it. Not at all. It’ll simply be a brief conversation and only once in awhile. I just will not push it and I will use my timidness toward women I like.

I need to stop listening to advice because it’s no good. I’m nowhere near that level of confidence yet and I got to just stick to what I am comfortable with.

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This woman I have been talking about has been avoiding me ever since I thought she had agreed to meet. But now besides being terrified of her (and I’m already extremely timid around her) I may have to cut my overtime hours in the plant where she works. But now I really feel bad for even suggesting the thought we would hang out..

I dont even feel comfortable in that plant anymore and I’ve been working in a different plant. I didn’t foresee this problem but unfortunately I just did it again. And now I’m losing money… all because of my stupidity. I really hate crushes and an attraction towards someone because now it’s just painful. Why do I keep doing this to myself? What did I do to provoke angry spirits that made this even possible? Its Kaitlyn all over again.

All I feel now is pain of losing another possible soulmate. If she ever was one in the first place. I know I’ve gotten a little angry over women who have rejected me, but not this current woman. No all I feel is sadness and fear. I am just so tired of feeling a shred of happiness only to plunge down into pain and despair. I know shes only one eo6man out of thousands but why are all the ones I encounter always running away from me? I dont know, lack of confidence or I don’t say the right things at the right moment.

I’m so tired of this pain. It just wont go away. I am depressed…

Clandestinely Now from Solution .45 is playing in my head currently.

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Well I managed to talk to this woman I like at work today, it all went well.. I even asked her if she wanted lunch. She wasn’t sure but then ended up saying yes.

Unfortunately I hit a snag. She either bailed or had a very important phone call. I may have pushed it a little too much by asking her to lunch. At first I thought it was, welp shes not really interested.

However I think it’s more likely I scared her away. Because she seemed like she was interested.. but perhaps shes very timid. I tend to be that way too..

Clearly thinking about this for a minute she may just need additional coaxing. Which works on my level because I myself am that way. I was kind of hoping that maybe we could have alleviated that by getting to know one another. So basically I’m going to have to change my process.

I hope I didn’t damage this too much but well, I’ll let her approach me now. If she seems too distant then maybe shes really not interested. Well next time I’ll just smile and wave at her. Or.. something. But I do get the impression she might be interested.. just very timid.

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From the crime show, NCIS. Gibbs has a rule to never date a co-worker.

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Anyway, this blog is a personal one (no EVs this time). My previous job I happened to like a girl who turned up didn’t like me back. I said some things to her online that I shouldn’t have and being at work has made things incredibly awkward. Not to mention work itself had gotten worse and I wasn’t getting enough hours (well other employees didnt get enough it was difficult times). I didn’t even want to be there because work had gotten too stressful. I felt like I didn’t belong there.

While this was happening I really got into watching NCIS and Rule #12 came up. Never date a co-worker. Sound advice and for those wondering what the other ones are…

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Some are missing, not mentioned or it’s an outdated photo im not sure which because I never kept up on every rule made. Some of them are good actually. So with my new job I kept the same mindset, Rule #12. It’s been working up until recently other co-workers have been trying to get me in a relationship with someone, no one in particular just generally asking me why I haven’t got a woman, wife or kids.

They also couldn’t have asked ata worse time. I have been focused on saving a new car (new 0-3 years, not an older vehicle) and I really want to get a Dodge Challenger, even if it’s a V6 version. But even with a bit of overtime it’s going to take some time to do. I can’t really afford to date right now and I really have no plans of a relationship.

Kids and possibly marriage is out of the question as they’re not cheap. Another thing is im not a romantic, sorry ladies. I feel like buying stuff like a card, flowers and chocolate, having candlelight dinners and long walks on beaches are a bit, outdated and cheesy. Going out to dinner at a greasy hamburger joint and seeing an action movie are my ideas of dating.

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All jokes aside many women are looking for a romance, something im probably capable of but not something I’d like to do and I’ve already made my peace with being single. Bottom line is that relationships are too much guesswork. Sometimes you don’t really know what the other person really wants and I’m not even sure I want a relationship.

Now that I got that out of the way there is a woman i work with, not really though considering the fact we’re on opposite sides of a small plant with a wall as a barrier, but there are times where she is on side I’m on. Mostly I haven’t really thought much of it but I work around one of the many access points to the plant I’m in so a few times she had mentioned, “good morning” before I had lost overtime hours and she started before me. So eh whatever, time goes by and just this last several weeks I caught her looking at me which at first I brushed it off but the most recent 2 was on Thursday. It was almost like she was looking at me like “why won’t you talk to me” but it could also be 200 other things.

The most obvious sign would be is the gossiping of me still being single from the guys. I almost wished I had said, yes I do have a gf so they could leave me alone, but they’ll be asking for photos. And you know, every smartphone has a camera so even if I had to take a photo of my imaginary gf sleeping, that just wouldn’t get them to stop asking for one.

I found a great job with a bunch of employees who are nosy.

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Oh well. Anyway since Thursday I just put up my blinders and focused on the job. All I can do is smile and move on. Not that this female co-worker isn’t attractive but well, I don’t really approach people i don’t know, unless it’s something I need I usually let others approach me. Makes it hard to make friends but as an introvert, it doesn’t really matter. I’m 39 years old and have never been on a date or relationship so at this point, in just used to the idea of being single that the idea of relationships just doesn’t interest me as much as it used to.

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So another Democrat, Ocasio-Cortez with one of their ridiculous ideas is a green deal that forces Americans to give up gas, flying and cows. Yes, cows. Because of their farting. Oh these libtards way of thinking never ceases to amaze me. And no matter what they tell you Democrats all want the same thing, they wanted to ban gas cars for quite awhile. Look at what California is doing, pushing people to drive EVs. And this is funded by none other than taxpayers.

But Ocasio is looking to kill off the fossil fuel industry, vehicle part manufacturing and mechanics jobs all for zero emissions in 10 years. That’s a lot of jobs. Sure there will still be part manufacturing and mechanics jobs and part stores but think Circuit City, Target and Sears. All the retail stores are downsizing, reducing hours and like GM, many workers are left stranded without jobs or enough money. This will cause a chain reaction which will cause the worst depression America has faced. Sure Ocasio is willing to give money to those unwilling or can’t work due the changeover but where would that money come from?

Oh yeah, taxpayers! As if Americans are not already at their limits (government shutdown is apparent of this) they can’t afford to pay more because they already live paycheck to paycheck. But leave it to the Democrats to try something like this anyways. As for the green deal, these people need to dial it way down. They got this environmental problem blown way out of proportion and it’s got people panicking the sky is falling. Relax folks. The planet is ok. It’s the people who are the threat here and the threat is legalized theft of your money.

That’s not to say our pollution isn’t causing some problems. But it’ll take a very long time before we finally get off fossil fuels. You got people already pushing electric vehicles but wait what about Hydrogen Fuel Cells?

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Well that was a bit of information but some is blown out of proportion, like I’m not even sure if half of what they say is even true. Maybe I need to research this. Much of what hydrogen (or HFC) offers is a major improvement over gas and it offers some things like fast refueling and no battery to use the vehicle.  This can be used in existing gas vehicles with some modifications but it is possible. And there are some problems like the volatile nature of hydrogen and how to produce it. These were the only two things I could see a problem with a long with now there’s people who are against it in the name of “being able to charge at home”. This doesn’t account to the fact that EVs are worse than gas in the cold. Whether hydrogen is a debilitating problem or not in reality so is battery operated vehicles. I need some truth in the matter and so far electric is taking up more market share. But it’s not a viable replacement to gas. Hydrogen would be if all the problems could be addressed.

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https://www.foxnews.com/us/megachurch-pastor-criticized-for-buying-wife-200g-lamborghini

The above link describes a bit what this pastor bought for his wife.

The news has been flooded by a megachurch pastor who bought his wife a $200k Lamborghini and people are flipping out over it on social media, criticizing the pastor while others are defending the pastor. Usually some rich person buying a Lamborghini or other ridiculously overpriced vehicle doesn’t really stir much media attention but this one certainly did and it got me thinking, why would someone buy a $200k vehicle. To put this in perspective a new car such as a Honda Accord costs around $25,000.00 while the cost of the Lamborghini costs $200,000.00. That’s  $175,000.00 more for the Lamborghini.

Many people have a hard time coming up with the $25k for a new car so much of the time a loan is taken out. You can get a loan for $450 month on the Accord but for a Lamborghini that’s over $4,000 a month.

On one hand it’s no one’s business what people use their money for. On the other hand spending $200k on a car is pretty foolish and illogical. Reality is, if one had $200k to spend, wouldn’t it be a great idea to put that money to good use?

There are many people in the world that could benefit from $200k. $200k could pave the way to cleaner electricity. It could get 7 people a new car so they can get around. You get the picture. I can’t see myself buying an expensive vehicle that costs as much as 3 homes.

Don’t get me wrong it’s not a bad thing to buy something you really want. I’m saving up for a Dodge Challenger. Sure I could get a used Honda just to get around and potentially save $10,000. It’s nothing though compared to buying a $200k vehicle.

If we are to change the rich into being more giving those who become rich should set a better example. It’s not anyone’s place to really say what rich people should or shouldn’t buy. If I made millions, I’d set some money aside for myself but not buy something that has a very high price tag compared to the average price of a similar item, such as a car. The rest would go towards building a better future for humanity.

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