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Well I had a bit of a mental illness breakdown. Its all because I’m having trouble understanding whether or not my crush has an interest in me. I keep going from I think we’re cool, to this is frustrating.. especially when I see my crush hugging another guy at work. I sort of let it go then it became to I didn’t see her the next day. Was going to approach her but chickened out.

I kept thinking where are the signs if she does like me? Or the signs she doesn’t like me. A gut feeling isnt going to make me understand whether she does. I just know I like and am interested in her.

So now I’m hiding out in the other plant again but there isnt anything to do in the plant my crush works in so.. but flipping out online and a few people claiming she rejected me is just a sign to take it a notch back. If shes not interested, oh well time to move on. If she is.. going to need proof. I got guys from that plant asking me how are things going with me and her. Well I usually just say it’s ok which it is. Even one guy claimed she was single but I tried taking that with a grain of salt.

So needless to say if any of them ask how are things going, well going to flat out say “I don’t believe that shes interested in me” because at this point that’s the truth and why I can’t even approach her. Thankfully I only took my frustrations online and not really at anyone. Most of the stuff was delete-able but not what I said to a person online… which I suppose is ok.

So some time apart will do me some good. Things were starting to go great but now I need to work on controlling my fears of her not liking me and this is where I just need to find out somehow if she does. But I’m doing it passively by just sticking to the other plant for the time being. I dont know for how long or if I will even see/talk to her again. I feel like I failed a test that I can never recover from. Or I can but I have to be very careful from now on. But I just dont have a clue if she likes me or not and everytime I thought she did it ends up being questioned. The fact I dont know and dont have enough confidence prevents me from approaching her.

I dont know if she was there today though because I didn’t see her car, which at first I thought she might have been avoiding me. This is crazy, it something most people can do but I happen to be one where its completely impossible for me to accomplish. So I need prayers. Either shes not interested and I need to move on or she is and I need to know in order to move forward. Because at this point I dont think she does and I’m just not going to see her anymore. If she does like me well.. hopefully something will happen. If not, I pray I never meet anyone else because the same thing will just happen with another woman. And there’s someone online who likes me but they’re too far away and I’m not interested so its easier to leave it alone. Hopefully there is nothing needing to forgive but I feel guilty for saying a few things I shouldn’t have like I wish she’d go away… just overall feelings of anger and frustration. Need a ton of prayers that I can be more calm if this situation is being confronted again. Just glad I didn’t say this to anyone at work.

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You may have heard of “live and let live” surrounding the LGBT community. Many would consider this as who cares what people do in their own homes. However this mentality has driven the LGBT organization to new heights and now they are shoving their lifestyle in everyone’s faces.

In schools, on the street, businesses.. now in the media such as the news and movies such as Toy Story 4 as a subliminal message. If that’s not enough…

Moms expose library’s shocking ‘Youth Pride’ event: homosexuality, transgenderism, drag queens

I couldn’t imagine how this managed to escalate to this point other than maybe, just maybe these people should have never left the mental asylums. Make no mistake about this, no matter what professionals say, the LGBT are mentally ill. Particularly the ones pushing this agenda to the extreme. Recruiting people by singing ridiculous songs about how people should do what they feel.

“If you feel like a girl, then you are one”

This is clearly showing kids and adults that it’s ok to change your sex or gender. Since transgenderism hasn’t really been in the Bible very much it stands to be clear it wasn’t a very big problem. Being gay however that was a big problem as often it was seen as an abomination and homosexuals were stoned when caught being with someone of the same sex.

So where did transgenderism start? It wasnt very easy to get sex reassignment surgery and even making a male look like a woman it wasnt easy. Maybe perhaps most people shunned away from this behavior or its possible it wasn’t an issue. So 4 or 5 out of 2,000 people thought they were the wrong gender. To avoid being outcasts they accepted the sex they were assigned to at birth.

Pretty much this was never an issue up until professionals got it into their heads about sex reassignment surgeries. Trying to surgically alter a male to look like a female despite the fact they’re still a male. Now if we were talking about intersex people, those born as two sexes which is incredibly rare they shouldn’t be considered transgender but intersex. They could be an intersex woman or man depending on the dominant sex. Again this is incredibly rare and unlikely to pose a problem if we considered reality instead of feelings.

If a male feels like he’s a woman or female that’s just a mental problem because, when was the last time you declared yourself as a male or female? I never thought about it. I figure, I’m a man based on the fact I’m male. I was taught this through biology and other teaching.

I never once thought I was a woman or a female. This .08% minority who has been recruiting people to be gay or transgender is inflating their numbers and I can see why it’s so high now. The extreme push for LGBT can only be accomplished through numbers and these people are everywhere now. In business, media and even in church. We’re on the losing side here because the LGBT has been a corrupt entity. Somehow the rights of being gay or transgender has slipped right by us when they closed the doors of many mental asylums. When the funds ran dry some people decided that being gay or transgender isn’t a threat to society.

Ok again, didn’t see people being gay is a threat but who in their right minds thought that males being women was a great idea? I dont care if it was the best idea at the time, transgenders shouldn’t have been allowed to be set free either. Being transgender means being rejected by a lot of potential relationships and they’ve made a big deal out of this.

“If you don’t date a transgender person you’re transphobic, shallow bigoted person who doesn’t deserve anyone”

More mind control, guilt trip scare tactics by the transgender recruitment team. Some transgenders dont think this way yet it’s almost unnoticeable that they’re really a male. Oh then you have those..

“Females do have a penis! You just see women as sexual objects. Wanting a vagina over a penis. Go away you stupid shallow bigot!”

Like is this an effin joke to these people?  I feel like this is an intervention where if you don’t date a black woman your a racist against blacks or if you dont like “plus size” women you’re shallow. Is it really that difficult that people are attracted to some people and not others?

Being gay is something that should be kept in family, behind closed doors.. if that’s even permitted…

Being transgender, there needs to be a better way than allowing men to be women and women to be men. Conversation therapy is becoming an illegal practice and already a few legit ones were forced to be abandoned because it’s not part of the LGBT agenda where..

“If you are gay, then be gay. If you want to be a female, then s*** f*** you are a female.”

The LGBT organization is relentless and what they are doing is evil. They need numbers and they’re pushing kids to be transgender or gay. We “live and let live” and this is what we got. The real sad part is these people will either try to deny this or they’ll say “you’re a transphobic, homophobic bigot dinosaur that needs to die off.”

Yes they’ve said that to some people on social media. The things they say shows that they’ll do anything it takes to make the world accept and love gay and transgender. Even though no matter what there will always be those who will not. They know this and when they get enough numbers and too many many rights, people including me who is speaking the truth will be jailed for life without parole or access to the outside world. They may as well put us folks in Gitmo if they had their way.

The LGBT must be stopped.

 

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Poll: Less than half of US adults feel extremely proud to be American

This is the problem in America. I’m proud of what America was founded on. Ever since the Declaration of Independence America was that white picket fence dream, with a beautiful wife, nice car, nice house, nice neighbors, and a sustainable job. And In the olden days you were proud to have kids. Now kids are too expensive to have, government has too much control over your children.

In this day and age its different. It’s been taken over by drugs, corruption, greed and worst of all too much government control and expenditures. I tend to agree here with some of these folks because America is becoming a liberal state. The founders of this land wanted to get away from all that and start a better future. Something that has been taken for granted. We forgot how to fight for America. So while you have that American flag up in the air with fireworks, pizza, hot dogs and soda (or hamburgers) watching the parade and visiting the local carnivals. Just remember, America needs our help in restoring the American dream. We definitely could use it, so we can get the freedoms of growing as a nation. This country is so divided right now and its because the liberal half has no idea what America is all about.

We got transgender kids, LGBT is being forced onto everyone. Abortion is rampant and if that’s not all Americans are in a crazy rush to cramp everything into one day rather than taking it day by day.

America has had its problems in the past and some of that has been corrected. Other things like allowing a male to be a woman… is taking freedom too far. It unfairly takes the rights of men to want to find love with the opposite sex. We did something right by separating these folks in mental asylums, only to the extent that they were not in public. There was a lot of ground work inside these asylums that needed to be dealt with and the partial problems was that these LGBT people were not cared for or looking for a better cure. America has become a Godless country. We need prayers that this nation can be saved.

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Edit addition: Also I just saw on the news. Democrats most pressing issue: transgender equality. Oh God. We have so much corruption and greed in this country this is what the dems talk about. Please God we really need saving!

 

So on one of my pages on Facebook is being targeted by LGBT fanatics. The way I think it works is if enough people report a post they get Facebook to respond. Well the guys at Facebook can’t deal with the truth.

One of the main ones is that they dont like it when people say “transgenderism is a mental disorder”. It IS a mental disorder. When people ask if your a doctor its basically telling you that if your mechanic told you your tires are wood and others start saying the same thing but you know the tires are rubber yet you got a group of people telling you it’s not rubber.

This is what we are dealing with here,  men claiming to be women and vise versa. Before I continue I think we need a moment of prayer here. I’m not one to do it all the time but at this point it’s all we can do here. And we definitely need it.

“Dear God, please help our sick world that is so far deep into corruption and misinformation that we need your guidance to fix and rectify. We have so much theft, anger, hatred, deception and corrupt people in this world that is affecting others lives. Right now we have people advocating the acceptance of males switching to females. The professionals are not doing the right thing and treating it as a mental illness but instead using this opportunity to deceive others. This is not right. Please help us fix our world.”

Ok we got that out of the way. The truth is that this is our world. And we’re taking poor care of the people in it. Too much selfishness that is going unchecked and no control over it.

Transgenderism is a mental illness no matter what the professionals.

Eating disorders, delusions, obsession compulsive, are examples of mental illness. Transgender is a delusion. These people look in the mirror in their birthday suit and think that it’s wrong. Except the fact it’s not wrong. If you got a brain, two arms, two hands, two legs and two feet and everything is in place you are not wrong. If you are born female you’ll be a woman, a male as a man.

Its really that simple, transgenders and professionals are making this more complicated than it actually is. Maybe its because with almost 8 billion people on the planet people are confused on what sex or gender they really are.

Its unfortunate that these people can’t accept the truth. I get that sites generally control what content shouldn’t be shown but if you want to take away the freedom of speech from those that do not accept transgenders then there shouldn’t be posts of transgenders either. It goes both ways and if we cant show these people that transgenderism is wrong and give people the ability to do that then it becomes an agenda. Your choosing to silence those who do not accept and do not want to see the world become dysfunctional.

At the same time being silenced in social media could then lead to violent behavior. My page was suspended. It may even be deleted because some people refuse to hear the truth. Now I tolerate a lot of things.  But I lost it when my brother decided to go transgender and be a woman. It wouldn’t have mattered if we accepted him, other people dragged him down, sexually/physically abused him and if I happened to be there I would have gotten dragged into fights. And I’m not a physical fighter. I probably would have ended up in the hospital with him.  This is exactly one of the problems with being transgender. I have already mentioned that transgenders are a target for violence and murder.  With Facebook suspending and banning accounts where do you think some people will turn next?

Stopping the freedom to share why transgender is wrong isnt going to stop people from doing things more drastic. I’m not a violent person but I took my frustration and placed it here. Trying to educate people that this is wrong. I did not write anything vulgar or anything. Transgenders think they are a minority like black or Asian but they’re not. You dont get to pick your skin color any more than you can change sex but people want to do it anyway like their bodies are like an inanimate object they can alter.

Sadly this transgender thing is so far out of control that it most likely will lead to worse violence. And you can’t stop people from thinking a certain way because this is far from being natural. Our bodies are not designed to be altered. Once you lose an arm or whatever it wont grow back. If you get shot or beaten to death you won’t come back. My brother committed suicide because he couldn’t deal with all the sex abuse and violent trauma. No one really can especially if you are already mentally ill. Transgenders are mentally unstable already, this leads to suicide because a few bad things happen to them they think the world will come to an end.

We really need to fix these people so their mind matches up with the body they were given to at birth. Because you can’t make a male into a woman. Its not possible other than surface changes and that is not the way to do things. It wont matter because in the end that “woman” will forever be male no matter the drugs, surgeries or clothes that they wear its impossible. Males and females are different. They were designed to be different. When you try to change that you change who you were meant to be.  Again.. this world needs prayers and a lot of work to do. This fight to correct transgenders to be their correct gender and not what they want to be, we’re starting to lose. We may be at that point in time where the system has to collapse in order to rectify this problem because an end of the world situation, only the strong will survive. I hate to see it end like that but I think I’ll witness the impending apocalypse when I’m looking for my dentures in a retirement home.

Also to reiterate, transgender is a deception. The act in which a male or female presents themselves as the opposite sex/gender is the very definition of deception. It doesn’t matter if its intentional or not it just IS deceptive. There is no way around that when you decided to swap genders/sex. If you dont like it, then be a proper person and don’t become transgender. If you dont like being the target of violence then dont be transgender. There is a lot of pain and grief when you are transgender and by silencing people like me on places like Facebook you are silencing a warning that being a transgender leads to constant rejection, pain and suffering. You will have problems finding a mate, job and many people do not like you whether they show it or not. With me, I dont support or like people switching genders/sex. I think its selfish, rude, disrespectful. It is wrong and goes against God. You dont respect your body, God or others. Transgenderism is selfish and you care more about yourself than others. I know it’s a mental disorder, but this isnt like eating yourself to death. People can’t control their eating disorder but if you have the sense to organize so much centering your life of being the wrong sex/gender you have the ability to learn and understand right from wrong. Some may cant control it like my brother who had a severe mental problem but I think many transgenders know that it’s wrong but they dont care because they choose to live selfishly.

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Edit: I get the feeling she might be interested but is really scared. I got crazy waves of affection. She may really like me but either doesn’t know how I feel or doesn’t know how to handle it. The guys at work are usually talking about women sexually and maybe shes not that type of girl for a 1 night fling. I’m overthinking this but when you’re hit by consistent waves of feelings and a throbbing headache you cant help but wonder. So ill take it easy and when shes ready I’ll be waiting for her.

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I managed to find out my crush’s name which I wont mention for privacy but it seems she’s not very interested because soon as she mentioned her name she ran off to go talk to this other guy.

Now there can be other reasons why she did this but the fact she did may be because shes interested in this other guy which I will respect. And while talking to a couple of my co workers they seem to think we’d make a great couple but I mentioned yeah that would be nice if she didn’t seem frightened or not interested so I told them that I want to take it easy and just say hello in the morning.

Of course I’ve been getting headaches and a sense there was a connection between us so I figured there was something. The problem and this goes back to being forgiven was the fact I kept avoiding her. Early on when i first met her there was an instant connection. I just ignored it. Yes shes also very attractive but I didn’t notice it until I kept bumping into her. She seemed to be interested because she would seemingly search for me and I just didn’t see it until it was too late. Then I ignored her for several weeks then that’s when I gained an interest in her.

But it’s been a struggle ever since. And this last attempt just showed me that it’ll be easier just to say hello. Pushing it will only push her further way and eventually be the runner. So I’m just going to leave it be. Co workers think we would be a good couple so there is hope there. I just dont want to stress over it anymore.

Maybe one day she’ll open herself up to me or maybe those co workers will find a way. Until then I’m not going to run anymore. I also have to stop worrying and overthinking this. All I can do is wait for her. If not, well soulmates are like 1 in a million and considering the fact I felt an instant connection, really strong vibes and headaches (actually that’s a very good sign according to one of my blogger friend) I think if she left my life.. i may never find someone as amazing as her and she is very amazing. But I dont know how to get her into some sort of relationship. We barely talk. I know shes great looking and has a nice car and shes really nice. And I just know she is amazing due to the strong unspoken bond I have with her. I can talk to other women and while they may be very attractive there is no bond. No this is the first woman I met where I feel complete with her.

The problem is how to break the silence of a perfect relationship. Maybe she feels it too and is scared. Prayers for both of us that we can become closer together.

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Well it appears that my crush is no longer afraid of me, I’m hoping that. Noticed she was wearing makeup and this past week after seeing her I’ve been feeling a sense of euphoria.

Does this mean she likes me? At this point it I really hope so because it’s going to be impossible for me to try asking her to lunch again.. for fear she might do the same thing again. So I’m going to take it easy. If she really wants to do lunch, I really hope she finds a way.

Otherwise anytime i see her I’ll try to find out her name and that way anytime i see her I’ll call her by name then. Its looking good now and hope she understands that I want to take things slowly. I dont want to scare her off again. So I’m going to try to coax her that maybe she can hint she wants lunch with me.

Until then I hope it all works out. Definitely need prayers on this. Got to figure out what she wants me to do that I feel comfortable with.

Edit: On the note about basically asking her to lunch is near impossible, its doubtful she’ll try (unless shes really that interested enough to do something) or shes seeing/has someone else already. In any case, I’ll be friendly to her and work towards being work friends and maybe she’ll reveal her interest if she is interested. Although its hard to get to know someone when its 30 seconds of passing by and that’s if it’s a regular thing.

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After seeing countless Facebook posts on gay parades and flags.. then seeing 2 gay guys kissing (this was full blown making out) I decided.. alright this is out of hand.

It actually got out of hand when they legalized gay marriage and a Baker to make a cake celebrating a gay wedding. It got out of hand when taxpayer money is being used to celebrate gay pride. It got out of hand when males are passing off as females and the worst yet, transgender kids.

Now I’m ok if your gay but that doesn’t mean im ok with hearing about it or seeing it everywhere. In fact its troublesome that people are so focused on this, especially news outlets and businesses. I had to cut Gillette out of my hygiene supplies due to the fact they support transgender kids, something that I don’t even tolerate.

Ever since my brother committed suicide because he was confused and hung out with the wrong people and becoming transgender the LGBT really does not care about innocent confused individuals getting hurt. They just care about building their army and force everyone to accept their way of life.

But these people are evil. Just as evil as those who have to kill an unborn child just so they don’t have to deal with the burden of a life. Now I myself dont want children and at this point I can see it not happening any time soon seeing as it’s not easy for me to talk to women I’m interested in. Even though there are additional steps I could take, at this point there’s no need to spend the money.

But this isnt about abortion, it’s about people who are forcing others that gay and transgenders are normal. The fact is, if they left kids alone and stop being all over in the media along with forcing people to do something that goes against their beliefs I wouldn’t even be typing this up. I wouldn’t share my dislike for the pride parades and 2 guys kissing on Facebook.

The fact is they would be left alone if they were not pushing it in the media and raising transgender kids. Instead they push their immorality onto everyone else just to justify their sickness. At what point is that line crossed?

They keep moving the goalposts around so they can get what they want. May God save us all, because there is way too much evil going on in modern times and our society needs saving.

Also as a side note on Facebook comments you now have LGBT supporters saying “your comments are the reason we need pride” such as this post I made they think they need more media attention. Now I think we need to come up with a way to stop these people from having this kind of power.

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