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Archive for May 21st, 2019

My problem with women. I should stop trying to ask them out. It’s clear I’m not ready for that and should focus on being friends with them, especially if there is a spark, I’m just too frightened by crushes.

The problem is, I’m not ready. People want to rush me into relationships. They want to play cupid and that simply wont work. Even if I feel there is a connection with someone I’m not going to rush into it. Not at all. It’ll simply be a brief conversation and only once in awhile. I just will not push it and I will use my timidness toward women I like.

I need to stop listening to advice because it’s no good. I’m nowhere near that level of confidence yet and I got to just stick to what I am comfortable with.

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This woman I have been talking about has been avoiding me ever since I thought she had agreed to meet. But now besides being terrified of her (and I’m already extremely timid around her) I may have to cut my overtime hours in the plant where she works. But now I really feel bad for even suggesting the thought we would hang out..

I dont even feel comfortable in that plant anymore and I’ve been working in a different plant. I didn’t foresee this problem but unfortunately I just did it again. And now I’m losing money… all because of my stupidity. I really hate crushes and an attraction towards someone because now it’s just painful. Why do I keep doing this to myself? What did I do to provoke angry spirits that made this even possible? Its Kaitlyn all over again.

All I feel now is pain of losing another possible soulmate. If she ever was one in the first place. I know I’ve gotten a little angry over women who have rejected me, but not this current woman. No all I feel is sadness and fear. I am just so tired of feeling a shred of happiness only to plunge down into pain and despair. I know shes only one eo6man out of thousands but why are all the ones I encounter always running away from me? I dont know, lack of confidence or I don’t say the right things at the right moment.

I’m so tired of this pain. It just wont go away. I am depressed…

Clandestinely Now from Solution .45 is playing in my head currently.

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