No seriously i wonder if it’s laziness, depression, tiredness or a simple case of idgaf because no one ever comes over. It’s not that bad now, i did clean it up to an acceptable point and i keep telling myself, this time it’ll work, but it ends up being..
because generally when i’m at work i’m thinking, today’s that day i’m going to clean…
and it’s the usual excuse, i’m too tired. I’m also only home 2 days a week (because i stay at someones house during the weekday for work) so that is generally the culprit but no, even during the week i get lazy and ‘forget’. It wasn’t always like this, when i first moved in, i always kept it pretty clean though most of the stuff i have was still in the packing crates. And it would always get progressively worse. It generally happened during the holidays where i would just be too tired, because working in retail was too stressful,
but it turned into an everyday thing where it was easier to turn on a gaming system, computer or put on movies for the night than to pick up a broom and sweep. No one will care anyway right?
My apartments like to do a yearly inspection and not bother to tell you until a week (sometimes less, like 2 days).
So they’re not even in the same month range. It would make sense to do it during the yearly renewal but they seem to not always do that. So now it takes me scrambling to get the place clean because i fail at being proactive and just keep it clean to begin with. Seriously if i spend an hour cleaning a week i wouldn’t care. But it still is a problem where i’d only clean when someone is visiting. So other than me getting into the routine of, “i’m too tired/lazy to do it” i ponder whether or not the last girl i was interested in didn’t do something.
Yes, i was rejected and not only that i was completely fine with being friends which was my original intention but i had people going,
which actually ruined any chances of being best friends with her, because she would always assume that was interested in her which i was but she didn’t need to know that and again was completely fine with being friends.
but again, that was perfectly fine if i was friendzoned, but i wasn’t just friendzoned, i was work-friendzoned. Anyway, i’m not looking for anyone nor i really want to find someone, which is another topic, Transgenders is a big reason i do not date or have a relationship so for the other major reason i do not date or am not in a relationship is because while rejection is a part of life, it’s not really something i am willing to put up with when i could be focusing on other stuff, like not cleaning the house…
So i’m going to have to come up with some sort of gameplan to keep my place clean and to avoid being lazy, tired or whatever. I doubt i am seriously depressed, maybe a touch of it but certainly not enough to really avoid doing housework. I got it done for now but i need to keep it clean and not cluttered.
